My partner and I went through a break up this time last year (2016). As soon as it got cold the smell took me back to that heartbreak. When I pass certain places especially a coffee shop that I would visit to get out of the house. I would start thinking of those days when I felt so lonely and depressed. Everything seemed dead to me. I was completely lost. I feel like that break up prepared me for who I was to become in 2017.
In 2017 things are a bit different. I feel like that break up pushed me to love myself more. It made me stronger and I knew that no matter what I was going to be ok with or without him. Before this break up I was clingy and I couldn’t see life without him. I was scared to lose him so it made me very insecure. Internal issues from childhood trauma. This year has been about healing that part of myself. It has been a rollercoaster, but I have noticed that I have transformed significantly.
(I found this in my drafts. Even though it is old and incomplete I wanted to post it just to remind myself that all things have a purpose. For me letting go is not ever easy. I hold on longer than I have to, but in the end these are lessons used as opportunities to continue grow. This break up I speak of truly was my great push to loving myself).